just be

My mom came to visit and was still in town for Father’s Day so we squeezed as much fun into the day as possible. Apollo Beach, the park, a nature walk, and what other than Five Guys for dinner. It just seemed like a father’s day thing to eat.

I felt like I needed to take it easy, sit back, reflect, and be alone this Father’s Day. Most of those did not happen, but it was a very blessed day.  Being almost five years into grieving the loss of my dad, not only suddenly, but traumatically I am constantly reminded how short life is. We aren’t guaranteed tomorrow.   Losing a loved one changes you forever, but it does get easier. However, I’ve realized  I’m in a new stage of grieving that is uncharted territories for  me. Instead of falling apart emotionally, I feel more shut down.  I think this is part of moving on.  The main piece of advice I could give for someone else walking though this would be to take the time to let yourself be. Even if it’s been 10 years, not wallowing in self–pity, but giving your heart and mind time to heal, to let God speak to you. And fully be your heavenly father.