use me

I feel insignificant most of the time, like my life isn’t making a difference. I’m a stay-at-home mom and while my primary focus is to raise these boys, and raise them well, I sometimes feel a larger calling. There are so many needs in the world, sitting here in my own ( very imperfect)  perfect world just doesn’t feel right. Because I am so blessed, and because there is such extreme suffering in the world, I can definitely feel guilty I’m not doing more.

I heard a story on JOY FM the other day, one of the DJ’S had just returned home from a missions trip and was recounting the things she had witnesses. The conditions of the orphanages are too much to bear. It makes me want to pick up one of those babies and just love on them. I cannot imagine being there, smelling the smells, seeing the hungry, holding a baby who spends it’s days in the crib all day. Those four walls, it’s only life, day in and day out. I cannot shake the visual when see said it was literally a “human garbage can.” That seems harsh, but it is harsh conditions and that’s the point. Not only is it so poverty stricken, the children are basically thrown away

I’m here. I’m not feeding the hungry in a foreign country, or adopting a baby from and orphanage, but I CAN make a difference in the small things. The things that go unseen. Of course, not to God.

My prayer today while running--- a run that I had not desire to be on- FYI--- God use me where I’m at. Certain things get hype, and attention, and some not so much. But God can use anyone at anytime with a willing heart. Lord, take away everything that’s not of you. Let it be about you, and when I speak let it be your words not mine.

I feel like one of the biggest thing we can do in our country, as stay-at-home-moms, is to encourage. Sometimes we don’t have a lot of extra money to give, time to serve, etc., but we have a ear to listen(sometimes) and when we spur on another on we are build the church and people are going out and telling other people the Gospel. Another brag on Facebook, because apparently, I'm the new Facebook spokeswomen…. I can’t count the amount of times I’ve been able to share a scripture or something about God  with someone on FB. I don’t think it’s a threatening on there. Just a thought.

One day I think I’ll be doing way more,  this isn’t a cop out blog post, For one… I hope I am a sweet old lady who will volunteer in the church nursery so frazzled moms don’t have to. But for now, I’m not going to assume their isn’t a need just because there isn’t a huge crisis, or because the needs aren’t as out in the open as some places.

Friends need hugs, babies in our country need hugs and a little extra love(even my own kids), people just need to know someone cares. Oooohh and here’s a big one. Loving the unlovable. Sure, we would all love to bless our BFF, But I challenge you to do something extra nice for someone you can hardly stand. It might hurt, but I know you will receive the bigger blessing

This is our mission field- Our every day life, where we are at.  And those are my latest thoughts. Thanks for letting me share!